Wednesday, November 12, 2008
today i went for body checkup. or rather i went to check up some things... it's so lame... anyways... when they were taking my blood sample, e pain tt i hate made me jus wanna die. when i was sitting outside e room waiting for e partial results to b out i actually wept. yes. silently of cux. and i pretended to b yawning aft i realised tt quite a few pple noticed me. so lame. in my mind i was thinking "y m i e one getting all these crap frm someone who doesn't even treasure me?!" so yeaps... e experience was quite something.
just aft stuffing myself with food, i felt a little better. but guess wad... someone had to sms me to spoil my mood. yes... smsed me for ans for chpt 9 consumer behaviour. tt's still okay. i din have e ans... so aft i came back frm e toilet i saw another sms frm e same exact person to ask me to help do e qns. of cux i was angry... but i did anyways... i cannot believe myself. i din understand y i jus didn't sms back "y u cannot do it yourself" e thing tt flashed thru my mind when i saw the sms asking for help. seriously... is my academic abilities e only thing tt's worth exploiting? or rather isit e only thing tt can make me suddenly "attractive"? sometimes i really wonder... im jus being used as a homework doer isit?! i really hate this shit!
e person has officially struck e last nerve in me. yes... e person has managed to do tt... 1st to do it! yes! congrats! frm now on... no more feeling crappy (even though im still feeling so fat!) and no more continuing with e roller coaster ride. i will get off e roller coaster now. but can someone tell me wad to do and how to face e person aft i get off e stupid roller coaster? i need help and guidance pronto! okies...i dun even understand wad im typing cux anthony bourdain is like talking non stop abt e restaurant in some NYC place and it's freaking distracting me... i really wonder.
a quote frm e book tt i read ytd...
"a placemat collects silver, a doormat collects dust"
struck something in me...
so harsh yet it's e truth
``Your name ; 9:30 PM